I used to see twins everywhere—enough that I started to keep track, and literally I would see twins every single day, sometimes twice. This is when I just learned what synchronicity meant. I had finally read The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron. Awareness is powerful.
But it did leave me wondering, what does it mean? The closest interpretation I could make was the universe was telling me I had a Gemini moon. I hadn’t yet known my birth time. But that was in hindsight and after years of seeing twins ALL THE TIME. Like, it was weird. It was noticeable. But it wasn’t providing anything other then curiosity and me saying to myself or my friends: “Look! Twins!”
Me deriving the universe was telling me I had a Gemini Moon is story. It’s confirmation bias. It’s me forcing meaning because as much as I love symbolism I also need clarity.
Seeing angel numbers and experiencing sychroncity is soothing. I love this connection to the universe. I love my spirituality and developing my intuition. It is a reminder that I am not alone, that I have guides, I am supported and that I am on the right path.
Don’t get me wrong, I love seeing 333 on license plates but has it every left you wondering, what does it mean? Specifically? Does it leave you wanting? Especially when you feel lost in life. And you keep praying and meditating and asking for help—for answers and to become unstuck and unblocked?
Embodiment and writing is an intuitive tool that transcribes the mind, the heart and the gut. It is an intuitive experience that provides a human answer. It translates our body’s language so that we can access literal answers to why we are stuck, why we are blocked, why we are drained—who is draining us.
We can source our inner guide, our inner genius. The mind, the heart and the gut all have neurotransmitters. These parts of our bodies are communication centers. They all speak. Embodiment and writing is how we transcribe the messages, the insights they have for us.
It’s just that many of us don’t spend our time embodied. We dissociate—are in various states of fight, flight, freeze or fawn. And so this keeps us unplugged to our body’s communication centers. Entering the body for some of us is scary because there is so much trauma trapped there.
Reiki is one way we can switch ourselves into feeling safe. Safety is physical. It is in our breath, it’s in the engagement of our senses. If we can stop and smell the flowers, our body knows danger is far, and our body is safe to be present in the moment. Reiki sends life force energy to the body and this is how we enter it.
The most recent answers I have gotten through developing this practice: I wanted to know why I wasn’t successful. Why I was lazy and didn’t work harder. This is an excerpt from my journal:
“The two biggest lies I am currently telling myself: I am entitled to success because I come from a well-off white family. I shouldn’t have to work hard for success because I am oppressed as a non-white not man.”
Yeah. I am not proud of this, but it is a truth. I knew because I felt lighter after writing it down. The truth feels like a relief sometimes. Even if the truth is really ugly. But from here I can respond to it in a way that actually empowers me.
It was a subconscious narrative keeping me stuck as much as entitled. And I share because this kind of clarity allowed me to understand my shadow. I can see all the ways I was conditioned to accept these as my truths—but it is also my responsibilty to counter them. It’s embarassing but it is also empowering. I can heal this now. I can show myself forgiveness and compassion and then evolve. I am more authentic now having transcribed my body’s own internal narrative.
This is what I am holding space for in New Moon Club. And you will not be forced to share anything—but you will be invited. Because sharing what we are ashamed of is how we release the shame.
Now that shame—my feeling of entitlement—is my little bitch. And it works for me, not me for it. And mostly, I have been less stuck, and have been working harder in a more authentic way. And feeling success too, in a more connected way, with the community I am seeking.
New Moon Club which has its first gathering this Sunday, I will send reiki as the practice to embodiment. Enter the zoom room with your favorite incense, light a candle, and lay comfortably on a yoga mat or a blanket or your floor—whatever soothes you and just recieve and listen to root chakra balancing frequencies. Receive distance reiki and guided meditation from me as a way to feel safe enough to enter your body.
Then, you will be invited to sit up, and we will write in response to the prompt. I know I said in an earlier post we would immediately start with writing, but I changed my mind. We will start with reiki meditation. Then we will do the hard work of self-healing. Of looking for the answer to what our anxieties say and tell us—and our bodies will tell us what our anxiety stores, how our anxiety blocks us, and what does it prevent us from doing.
However, I do want us to leave room for the unknown as this is an intuitive experience and Mars is squaring Uranus—we will be surprised. But surprises are the true gems of reiki + writing.
It is a practice that you can continue to do on your own. It is a tool you can add to your repertoire of self-healing strategies. In community when we do it together, we create a stronger wave and we have access to a more easeful accountability then when we must be our own manager of self-medicine.
It’s work. It’s hard. It’s scary. I wish my offering were more glittery and fun. But the result of this practice is relief, weightlessness, empowerment, transmutation. It feels good eventually….
I truly believe the best thing we can do for others is heal ourselves.
I hope you can join me this Sunday.
Love,
Sarah
THE DETAILS
March 10th, 2024 @ 5 PM EST with the NEW MOON IN PISCES
Virtual via Zoom
New Moon Club Dues: sliding scale $5-$100 USD OR become a paid subscriber which is $5/ month with one month free. This covers dues for future New Moon Club gatherings. If you can not make the live, it will be recorded and it can be sent to you.
If you send a Venmo: include your email to get the zoom room link. Send me a DM on Substack or email me here: sarahheffner@gmail.com if you have questions.
This is an amazing post. Thank you. There is a lot in there and I'm not going to knee-jerk a response. You know, I've never had reiki!
I love reiki. It's such a wonderful tool! Also I'm a twin (but we are Pisces ) We are very different and do not get along. I often think about the astrological aspects that come into play with that